Ragged lawn
‘Tis an unweeded garden
That grows to seed, things rank and gross in nature
Possess it merely.
– Hamlet act 1 sc. 2
A man came in, from time to time,
to mow and weed and hoe and trim
the ordered world you left behind.
He worked with diligence and speed,
but it was only work to him,
and then he stopped – I don’t know why.
And now, my cat stalks wrens among
your ragged grass and giant weeds,
and straggling dogwood overhung
with thorns – she holds her hunter’s pose
amidst damp shade and rotting leaves
where phlox once bloomed in open sun.
The perfect geometry which framed
your realm has all but decomposed –
its squares and pentagrams decayed.
This wilding hunter’s paradise
where any seed or rootlet grows
is fine for birds and butterflies,
but not the garden that you made.
Published in Pennine Platform No. 83
Antiphon
You ask why that man sleeps so late
in a winter doorway, cold, alone,
as we step round him, wide awake.
I do not know.
You ask why girls your age are chased
by men with knives and guns, from home,
while you stay warmly loved, and safe.
I do not know.
You ask, why we live high and well
while others fade and sink so low,
and not give half we have to them.
I do not know.
You’ve asked if it’s we lack the will
to act – or perhaps it’s not our role?
For fifty years, I’ve asked, and still
I do not know.
But should you ask: by not doing more,
do we not hurt ourselves, and show
we’ve made a world that’s deeply flawed?
Now that, I know.
Published by The Poetry Shed, as part of a series in support of The Nourish Community Food Bank
Are international aid organisations paying enough attention to the ethical complexities of what they do and how they do it?
Last year, as one of my final projects before I left International Alert after thirteen years, I led a review of the organisation’s ethical approach to its international peacebuilding work, and the development of a new ethical guidance to replace the one that had last been updated in the 1990s.
Along with colleagues from various parts of the world with whom I did this, I found it a fascinating experience which reminded me of and helped clarify some of the ethical tensions inherent in international aid, while also reassuring me that my colleagues at Alert were by and large acutely aware of these, and doing their best to navigate them carefully and responsibly -if not necessarily getting enough support and guidance from senior staff such as myself.
An ethical minefield
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The visitors’ book at the Knoydart bothy
Three hundred miles by train and bus,
fifteen on foot, just to spend a night
with the woman I love. Has it come to this?
I read in muted peat firelight.
I pictured him: a wife, two kids,
a month of scheming, then to crest
a ridge and share a gasp amidst
this vast, receding endlessness;
a mutual glance, his arm around
her shoulder, hers about his waist;
their futures and dilemmas drowned
by silence, resonance and space.
And his exquisite moment pierced
my carapace, exquisitely.
The peat smoke lifted acrid fears
across the room, and clung to me
thereafter, placing next ahead
of now: glimpsed oceans, distant peaks
still beckoned but dispersed – the red
armada, drifting out of reach.
And so I traded wilderness
for suburbs where, late nights, I draw
peat smoke, uncanny loneliness
and mountains: shadows on the wall.
Published in Pennine Platform No 83
Reservoir
Your eyelids flicker while you sleep
in filtered moonlight, and betray
a reservoir of dark, hid deep,
swept ceaselessly by squalls which play
and whip the waves, until sunrise
when you assume a veil to view
yourself and those around you through
and shroud your secrets from your eyes.
He offered love without entail
while hers was rationed, rare, withdrawn:
they wove cold, angry, constant, warm
and doubting colours in your veil,
distorting what you see and feel,
and storing hurt, too deep to heal.
Published in Poetry Salzburg Review May 2018
Foreign correspondent
The uplands deadened him the more:
where people neatly laid in rows
called louder than in other wars,
by simple geometry; he closed
his ears but year on year the song
joined whispers from elsewhere, to drown
the voice insisting we prolong
our lives. He hears no music now.
Daybreak unrolls – without a sound
the empty landscape is unmasked,
the wind has dropped; and far from sea,
the gulls fly, quiet, above the town.
How wide, the space between what passed
and what he told of tragedy.
Published in Poetry Salzburg Review No. 32, and anthologised in The Road to Clevedon Pier
Instructions
Select your glue with care
as most are designed for smooth
or porous surfaces – not both
brush clear of debris
then dab with alcohol
rehearse the join – and breathe
the contours
where the break occurred
must match
press firmly – tentatively rotate
till both sides fit as they did before
with a silent click
and breathe – now practise again
for you will not have a second
second chance
should you misjudge
the union will be
not as good as new
so breathe
unscrew the cap
imagine every step ahead
then pierce the seal with a pin
apply the swelling glue
and breathe
wipe clean the tip – replace the cap
and set aside the tube and pin
you should not need them again
can you feel your breathing?
spread the adhesive evenly
with an unspent match
position both parts so you’ll be
almost sure to grasp them right
can you feel your breathing now?
next you must wait
until it is almost
dry to the touch
so sit, and notice your breath’s caress
assess the glue with a fingertip
and test again
and now
while breathing quietly out
suspend your disbelief
take both in your hands – rotate
attempt the angles again – again
and breathe
in one swift movement press and hold
until your fingertips turn white
and breathe
a final check – the angle’s right?
wipe swollen beads from the join
the hairline disappears
set down the delicate whole
and breathe
and wait
and learn
while breathing
if the join will take
Published on Ink Sweat & Tears
Peter’s story
I’ll tell you what compassion is, my friend –
it’s when you know the crucible of pain
awaiting you, as you draw near the end,
and still elect to light the path they tread,
who walk in comfort, lit by lesser flame.
I noticed him, installed and calm ahead
of us, as we in urgent order swarmed
the carriage, took our places and prepared
to rattle through a January night
towards our weekend shelter from the storm.
Nobody spoke. In cheerless squares of light
we glimpsed the flickerings and silhouettes
of lives subordinate to evening rites
in rooms and kitchens: children, dogs and back-
yards telling tales of nurture or neglect.
We hurtled past, confined to our own track:
inflation, miners, oil, the three-day week,
the fight to keep our balance in the black;
until the guard appeared, the traveller stirred
himself and punctured our anxiety:
My ticket is for greater journeys, sir –
I come from where this line begins and goes,
to sit beside you all and share the word
you know, but need to hear and learn again,
and call you to rewrite the lives you chose.
Our eyes were drawn to him, upright, restrained,
stock still in a worn, ill-fitting suit. Dawn broke
forever in his eyes – a sky ingrained
with promise – new sunlight embellishing
the pattern of the day to come, with hope.
This crisis is the moment not to win
back all you can, but time to shake your fear
of losing, calmly reach across and bring
down all the boundaries that defend this world,
and find your plenty in the word we share.
That’s how he always spoke, in words which curled
around the truth until you felt it swell
and germinate within your heart. I turned
back to The Times, but set against its bleak
headlines… he simply drew me in. I fell
headlong, could think of no-one else all week –
his eyes, his voice, his words! – until I found
him on the train, sat close, willed him to speak
and when he stood to do so felt his grace
and love reverberating in the sound.
_______
On better days, I simply breathe the faith
he showed and sowed in me, the certainty
with which he saw our nature, and his death,
and how our correspondence with the grain
of others’ lives dispels our poverty.
What he told us in darkness, we’d proclaim
in light, he said, and I’ll do all he asked,
to raise and radiate his words, his name,
and the compassion I saw in his glance,
as windows rushed the sound of darkness past.
Published in Pennine Platform No. 83
What we are afraid to tell our children
Before you start, best think it through;
more hands, light work; more haste, less speed;
take care, in all the things you do,
of others’ feelings, others’ needs:
treat them as you’d have them treat you.
All these and other rules of thumb,
words of advice and basic truth,
elders have garnered one by one,
and willingly pass on – as proof
against disquiet – to the young.
But out of fear, there’s one they won’t:
that arguments for quitting life
are barely weaker, more remote –
once you weigh happiness and strife –
than reasons why we mostly don’t.
Published in Pennine Platform no. 83